Question submitted 6.09.09

Dear Angels:

I am so confused and frustrated.  I have been on this path to awaken, or whatever you call it, for several years after finally opening up to the new age, new thought ideas. I have tried so many different things– ascension, new human, new thought, positive thinking, visualization, yoga– well, you name it, I think I have done it.  I feel okay, or better for a short time, then I still find myself looking for something else. Someone comes along and what they say sounds really good, sometimes even logical, and I get all excited and think this must be it.  Help! I am getting tired, seriously tired in my bones and body, and I am only getting moments of peace now.  Do you understand?

Signed,

-Been There, Done That

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Dear Soul,

We are so excited that you are confused and frustrated.  That is what all those exercises were about, to get you to a point of . . well, no return! Hopefully you won’t run around and try any of those things again, and when you are too exhausted to DO ANYTHING, then maybe you will settle down and BE.

Let us tell you what we see when we look at all this going on. Remember when you were a baby, or you had a baby, it would cry and cry. You looked and checked, and everything seemed to be okay– it was fed, dry, comfortable– but still crying. What did you do??? You stuck a pacifier in its mouth. That’s right, all these things that you are pursuing are just SPIRITUAL PACIFIERS, for babies.  Now we see that they even make fake pacifiers for adults, made out of candy. Yummy.

Trying to ascend, be awake now, be in the now, are all your attempt to create some state of bliss, beatitude or ecstasy.  Really they have nothing to do with your natural state of BEING. All those things lie within your field of experience. They are states brought on by your own thought process. They come and they go.

All the forms of consciousness are all heading in the wrong direction, they are being experienced by you in a field of time. What we tell you about whom and what you really are is timeless, it can never be experienced, grasped, contained or given expression to by any man.  This will lead to nowhere. Which is good. Then you will see, all this led me nowhere. Now what do I do?

Well, start at the beginning. Inside. Understand that there really is no YOU to grasp or understand anything. The moment you say, “Oh, I understand,” then you see you have not. For there is no “you” to understand. There is infinite being, and it is experiencing itself as YOU.  You keep trying to experience yourself as It. Does not work. Too confining within the sphere of your brain, you see. Oh, just relax, it is closer than your next breath, and in between your heartbeats.

When you finally give up mentally, physically, spiritually, emotionally–  all the things that you think you are– when you give that up, then there the truth will be.  And it will be so simple and easy, you will say, “well, it was there all along, and is this all this is????  How could I have missed this,” you will muse. Then you will continue to allow infinite being to experience itself as you.

We think that is enough confusion for today.

We are incomplete without your being,

– EsaRa